Potential Carlisle One Shot - Draft

I have never felt such cold before and it concerns me. The reason behind my sudden chill is obvious to me but yet I still wonder why I feel this way, days after the confrontation. We are safe, we are alive and there should be no cause for concern but I feel it greatly. Is it because I know the words that Stefan and Vladamir said to me are true? Or is it because I feel guilt towards those I used to consider potential brothers to myself?

Esme would tell me that I am being what she would term 'typical Carlisle' but I don't believe so. Given that Aro and the Volturi Guard were ready to fight us, I do feel I have a reason to worry.  Edward feels the same, of that I am sure. His expression these last few days tells me much and I know he has read my thoughts upon occasion. Yet he does not speak up because I know he wants to protect his little family from any further concern. I understand that feeling all too well and I also have not shared with anyone, not even my Esme. How could I possibly tell my darling that I am still concerned, that a chill constantly runs down my spine and most days I feel uncomfortable?  She would only fret with me and that is the last thing I wish.

Hmm so I've written this so far and I know I've got more to add here but I don't know I feel like his thoughts are rushed here to an extent. Am I skipping over things? Being vague? 

I want to get across the point that Carlisle is deeply concerned still and that he does not know what he can do to appease his fears short of talking to his family.  I want to be able to express how Carlisle felt while standing on that field and how he simply cannot return to normality. 

Carlisle is speaking to me and I hear him but it's just difficult to get everything down in the way I want.