Sacrifice: A Twilight AU (Carlisle & Edward - Father/Son)

READ FIRST: What if Carlisle had really died on the battlefield in BD2? In this little video, Edward is griefstricken at the loss of his father and ravaged with guilt. He goes to Italy to kill himself with help from the new Volturi leaders (Aro etc obviously dead). Bella, concerned for Nessie and for Edward, repeats a journey she once made to save him.  The grey scenes represent Edward's memories.
I hope you enjoy this little AU story.

I am going to write a fan fic based on this particular video at some point so look out for that. I have the beginnings of this fic in my head but as always, I'm having difficulty putting it into words.

Various Ponderings...

I'm feeling pretty poorly today but I've been set a challenge to write a Carlisle/Esme one shot by my good friend and I definitely want to do this. This will take some time to plan and actually write as it is to be about their first kiss all those years ago. I want to make sure I do this justice so I'm putting down some rough bulletpoints and stuff just to give me something to work on.

•  Carlisle changed Esme in 1921. Now with a few C/E stories, they have Esme awake from her change and within a few days fall deeply in love with Carlisle. This is not believable to me, though I do feel that Esme would certainly have feelings for the good doctor, considering she had a small crush on him at sixteen. Carlisle however had no romantic feelings at the time they first met and rightly so. That would have been inappropriate and that is not within his character.  I would possibly set their first kiss after at least a year. I feel that Esme would have been out of her newborn stage by the time a true romance was developing between the two. That's not to say that feelings didn't develop before that but no actual action would have taken place in my view.
• I would ideally set it in Ashland, Wisconsin. I don't believe that Carlisle and Edward would have moved from there just yet, even though Esme became the new addition to the family. I don't really know why I feel this way. Ashland to me just feels like where the romance for Carlisle and Esme began. Or at least the first beginnings of it anyway.  I believe they would have moved elsewhere perhaps after Carlisle married Esme.  Then later on to Rochester where as we know the story of Rosalie begins.
• I feel that Carlisle would be quite shy in his approach with Esme. Carlisle is a gentleman to me and would not wish to force his affections on Esme, especially if he has just learnt of her past. Esme would obviously be reluctant in a sense given her history but I also feel that she would be slightly more open because of her feelings towards Carlisle. Neither of them would make any obvious moves though so I think that Edward would somehow be involved in bringing them together.  Again many C/E fics have written something similar but I think that is true to canon personally and I could imagine it very well. Edward the reluctant matchmaker!

About Chris Eccleston, Doctor Who and Other Things....

So this morning, news broke that Christopher Eccleston is apparently not returning to Doctor Who. Digital Spy broke the news first, claiming that they have spoken to the BBC PR team and that while Chris had a couple of meetings with Steven Moffat to discuss the 50th episodes, he ultimately decided not to do it. Now as you can imagine, the internet has predictably exploded with the news and emotions range from outrage to disappointment.

What I want to say is that we have neither heard from Chris or the BBC officially to confirm this and I know that Digital Spy have a history of getting things wrong. It's not to say that the story is false because it could well be true but I have difficulty believing DS when they only say an 'official source' in their article and don't name them at all. Chris may well not be in the episode but it may not be for the reasons stated or if he is, the BBC want to keep this a secret as long as possible and are therefore not backing up DS or denying DS's story.  The only people that will know the real truth is Chris, Moffat and the Beeb.

Regardless, it does not excuse the absolute horrific comments being made about Chris on the internet. Fans have exploded with rage and are calling him an absolute failure, the world's biggest idiot, a twat, a prick, douchebag etc. People are also saying he's let the fans and the show down completely and we should never forgive him for this total error in judgement. I hardly know what to make of it but it's completely and utterly unacceptable behaviour. I get that people are upset and I get that he's their favourite Doctor (he's mine too) but there is absolutely no need to fucking rage at the guy for a decision (if true) he's made. I respect Chris enormously as an actor and he is a man of principle. If he does not feel a role is right for him, he won't take it and I completely agree and respect that.  Why should an actor have to come back to a role he did almost ten years ago purely because the fans want it? It's not right. 

I really loathe the Who fandom sometimes because it can be completely out of control with fans believing that they have a sense of entitlement to pretty much everything. I admire Moffat for even taking on the 50th ep, knowing that fan's expectations will be out of control.

Carlisle Cullen Pic Spam

Sharing some Carlisle sexiness. I love him here. He's all protective and angry, incredibly sexy.

Breathing Hope: A Carlisle Cullen Tribute

This is my tribute to the most wonderful character in the Twilight Saga: Dr Carlisle Cullen. It is also a tribute to the actor behind him Peter Facinelli.

I used the song 'Breathing Hope (Candlelight Version)' by Natalie Nicole Gilbert as it is her own tribute to Carlisle and I think it's beautiful. I'm very happy to say that Natalie actually really liked my fan video and was happy for me to use the song so I'm very pleased.

Hope you enjoy.

Potential Carlisle One Shot - Draft

I have never felt such cold before and it concerns me. The reason behind my sudden chill is obvious to me but yet I still wonder why I feel this way, days after the confrontation. We are safe, we are alive and there should be no cause for concern but I feel it greatly. Is it because I know the words that Stefan and Vladamir said to me are true? Or is it because I feel guilt towards those I used to consider potential brothers to myself?

Esme would tell me that I am being what she would term 'typical Carlisle' but I don't believe so. Given that Aro and the Volturi Guard were ready to fight us, I do feel I have a reason to worry.  Edward feels the same, of that I am sure. His expression these last few days tells me much and I know he has read my thoughts upon occasion. Yet he does not speak up because I know he wants to protect his little family from any further concern. I understand that feeling all too well and I also have not shared with anyone, not even my Esme. How could I possibly tell my darling that I am still concerned, that a chill constantly runs down my spine and most days I feel uncomfortable?  She would only fret with me and that is the last thing I wish.

Hmm so I've written this so far and I know I've got more to add here but I don't know I feel like his thoughts are rushed here to an extent. Am I skipping over things? Being vague? 

I want to get across the point that Carlisle is deeply concerned still and that he does not know what he can do to appease his fears short of talking to his family.  I want to be able to express how Carlisle felt while standing on that field and how he simply cannot return to normality. 

Carlisle is speaking to me and I hear him but it's just difficult to get everything down in the way I want. 
 

Welcome to My Life

Hello all,

If you are here then either you know me and want to see what crazy stuff I will write on here or you have just randomly across this. If the latter is the case, well hi there and god help you haha!

In all seriousness, this blog is mainly going to be used for me testing out some fan fiction writings especially Twilight and Carlisle Cullen stuff. I warn you now that I have a serious love for Peter Facinelli and for Carlisle Cullen so expect this blog to be filled up with that.  I also might post videos and pictures of things that are going on in my life so it's pretty much going to be a blog about anything and everything.

I will treat this blog as my playground and I hope that you'll enjoy it too.

Liz x